I really don’t know what I am going to do with this blog. I am in a nasty creative slump and have been for quite a while. Sometimes I will have trickles of ideas, but then they dry up. I think my biggest problem is that I have a really nasty critical voice in my head that chops things up and says “NO” when I try ANYTHING. I have been trying to tell that bitch in my head to shut the hell up and allow me to work.
Story behind NenaMataHari: When I was in high school, I was a little brat in German class. I would do things like tell a younger student that he would get extra credit if he asked the teacher “Hast du Verstopfung?” He didn’t even ask me what it meant! He just marched right up to the teacher and asked him. My German teacher gave the poor git a weird look and said “Nein. Ich habe Exlax genommen. Warum zum Teufel hast du mich fragen?” My punishment was to memorize a German pop tune and sing it in front of the class. Since this happened quite often, I got the nickname “Nena” from the band who gave us “99 Luftballons” There are a decent number of 80’s and 90’s German pop tunes I still have memorized. I’m prepared for karaoke in Germany.
I also love music from the Balkans, especially former Yugoslavia. The Mata Hari bit of this name came from a band called Hari Mata Hari. I love Hari Varešanović’s voice.