I drew this in my art therapy journal last night.
I should just draw any time that I have problems with anxiety. My art therapy journal isn’t about getting things correct, it’s just to blow off steam. I should start another pad of something for practicing getting things accurate. I still haven’t touched my big pad of news print for drawing exercises because I still need to finish that medical billing and coding class. I have only three chapters left on that bloody thing.
I may wind up going back to school for a BFA in studio arts. I’m not sure when I am going to do this. Is it a “useful” degree? Probably not. I am more wanting to get into a BFA program for self improvement rather than diving into an actual art career. If a nice art career does happen, that would be a bonus. I will probably start at Harper College and then transfer somewhere else. While I am at Harper, I may as well take ASL classes as well. I should learn ASL any way so that I can communicate with more people and because with Menerie’s Disease, I can lose my hearing at any time and perhaps with little to no warning. Perhaps I will have a double associates degree in the fine art and sign language.
Fashion design classes would be great too. I was actually a model for the Harper College fashion students many years ago. It was SO much fun. It was great to model all those wonderful clothes. We would go to country clubs and do catwalk shows.
I spent way too much of my life being paralyzed by fear and doubt. I want the rest of my life to be happier and put all the trauma and bad stuff behind me. I want to be able to do things I’ve always wanted to do, but got talked out of because “It isn’t STEM, so therefore it’s stupid.”
I found this book at Barnes and Noble:
This should keep me busy for a twelve or so hour flight, right? I can’t believe how quickly the Japan trip is coming up. I admit that I am pretty nervous. I am excited and happy to be going on this trip with my boyfriend. My biggest fear is getting into something with shellfish and having to bring out the dreaded Epi-pen.
I also bought a smallish Fabriano drawing journal. Yeah, I know I have a lot of damned sketch journals. I didn’t want to bring my therapy journal with me. It is big and bulky and I really don’t want to take a chance on losing it. It also smells of the nail polish ebru, so that may freak the TSA out thinking that I’m smuggling something illegal. I plan to draw things and also tape various paper keepsakes in it as well such as tickets and whatnot.
I’m not sure if I am going to be able to update this blog whilst in Japan, so I will probably wind up uploading my art goodies and whatnot when I get back.
I haven’t really been doing too much when it comes to art. I am TRYING to get this medical coding class over by sometime in April so that I can have it done before I go to Japan with my boyfriend. I thought the ICD-10-CM was hard! CPT and HCPCS is even more confusing. I keep having to reread things and keep having to play the lecture bits over and over. It is so frustrating. I just want to get this all done so that I’d be ready to get a better paying job!
I did buy another bound sketch journal. Like I needed any more of those! I decided to make that into my paper art therapy journal.
I probably won’t post EVERYTHING I put in there, but I will make myself do at least SOMETHING in it, even if it’s complete shite. I need to be able to force myself to do at least something. I did have one little tidbit that I thought was not too bad:
I sometimes do collages in this journal when I can’t think of anything else to draw. Sometimes I will come back and draw things around what I’ve cut and pasted. In this case, I had a catalog from Stash Tea. I cut out a bunch of tea cups and pasted them onto the paper. Since the tea cups made me think of British things, I drew a bunch of Doctor Who characters interacting with the tea cups. The figures are quite rough. I kind of liked the Dalek stuck in a tea cup. This is the first time I have ever drawn a Dalek. I need more practice so I can draw better Daleks.
Ugh. I guess I will post the whole page even though I didn’t think it was a strong art journal page over all so you can see what I did with the characters and the tea cups.
Figures are definitely not my strength. I need to do a lot more studying with those. Plus I just scribbled out the TARDIS and didn’t really put any time into that.
I found an old jug in the attic. It was a souvenir from a stupid Sig Ep frat party from 1963. My father was a Sig Ep. Figured he’d be the type to be in a fraternity. Any way. I grabbed some Testors oil based model paints to paint over those stupid pirates on the jug. I should have taken a “before” photo, but didn’t think of it until I finished painting it.
I have taken interest in this bloke named Noah Bradley. He is an artist who teaches on the side. He has all kinds of really interesting tips on how to improve your art no matter what level you are. One of the things he suggests it practicing art an hour a day for three weeks. I am sort of doing that with the art journal, but the entries rarely take an hour. When I am done with this code class, I will do proper art study exercises from his blog and Youtube channel.
Mercury in Retrograde usually kicks my ass. If I’m going to get super sick or flare out badly, this is the time it happens. So far my ulcerative colitis has been acting up pretty badly today. =( I hope that it won’t continue into a long flare.
There were quite a few pastel drawings that I started ages ago, but got frustrated and put them aside. Some have been in unfinished mode for a few years. I decided to finish them up. They’re studies, of course, so I don’t see myself putting any of these in a frame. They’ll just remain in the drawing pad like a diary.
You may recognize this pekingese pastel from another post. A friend of mine who is an art professor had suggested I add highlights, so I did.
This is a pastel of my Zoe Zlata. It’s not the best artwork I’ve ever done, but at least it’s finished and I can use it to compare progress whenever I draw or paint something else of my dog.
I long ago lost the reference photo for this pastel, so I just went ahead and made it cartoony.
I do have a page that has two small flowers for a colored pencil study, but I didn’t really think it was worth taking a photo and posting. I may go to the Botanical Gardens in Fort Wayne and/or Chicago to fill that page up.
I haven’t really been in art mode lately. A couple days ago I had the worst headache ever. It scared me because it hurt so bad that I thought I was having a stroke or an aneurysm. I raised my arms, smiled in a mirror talked to my dog Zoe to see if my speech slurred. Very scary! I also had a nasty stomach bug the same day.
I went to Half Price Books today and found this book:
I like how it covered and resembled a lot of the drawing classes I modeled for, so I went ahead and bought it. It has a lot of good exercises and explanations. I hope this will help me improve my drawing and painting.
This is one of my Moleskines. It is from Decemeber. I drew it at my boyfriend’s apartment while he as taking a shower:
I saw a cute little doggy a couple weeks ago and drew this:
I am going to be busy for the rest of the week, so I don’t know if I will have time to draw. I should get in the habit of drawing in at least one of my sketchbooks or pads, even if it is just one of the little Moleskines.
I plan to go on an art holiday in Europe next summer. I am not sure which countries I will visit and not sure how I’m going to plan my itinerary. One possibility is to visit as many famous art museums as I can so that I can actually see famous works of art in person. Another possibility is to bring my art supplies and draw and paint as many scenes as I can.
Before that, I need to fill all of those art pads seen above. I need to get myself to a much better skill set so I can do those drawings and paintings justice.
Does anyone remember the RPG Vampire the Masquerade? It came out sometime in the 1990s. I think maybe 1990. I played it between 1994-1998. I had just about all the books. Life got in the way and I got creeped out by a few players who played Malkavians. I ended up selling the books. After finding some Facebook groups for V:tM, I started to download PDFs of the books.
I think I am going to draw a character from each Vampire Clan to practice drawing human form.
These are the clans:
Followers of Set
I may as well create mini-bios for them in case I want to use them to play the game or if I want to bring my writing back from the dead.